My eager expectation and hope

. . . as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death.

– Philippians 1:20 (ESV)

I don’t know if I have a “life verse”, or even if having a “life-verse” is a good idea.

But if I had one, it would be this one!

It is very easy for me to feel ashamed. Of myself, mainly. It’s hard to explain, but this has been a struggle for me all my life. It is a struggle I would like to put behind me.

I am not naturally noble or cool, and I still can’t figure out why I was blessed with such a cool wife and cool children. God is so good. He has been incredibly good to me.

My dream for my own life’s ending is that I won’t be ashamed. That I will have “full courage” – and not just at the ending of my life, which I probably think about more than is normal or useful :-), but also now. Oh to live a life that leaves me not at all ashamed.

Christ deserves to be honored in my body. Whether I live or die.

May it be so.

6 thoughts on “My eager expectation and hope

  1. bottom line…good post.

    AND, what’s this junk about not being naturally cool? or noble?

    how could a guy pull off the name “mb” and not be all of those things and more?

    honestly. you’re one of the greats in my life.

  2. Katelyn,

    ahhhhh…. well, you know how we each know ourselves better than anyone else does? I guess I should have explained that line better. Except I’m not sure I can. Just hopeful for the continued working of God in my life.

    Thanks for the constant encouragement – you are a blessing.

  3. Beel – you are not the Lone Ranger in feeling inadequate at times…lots of times for me. And I get the same thoughts in my head about the blessings I’ve been given even though I’m such a creep. It all comes back to the love of God and his blessings on my life – I deserve nothing and He still gives much. Know that there are many like us out there and be encouraged.


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